I am now going to write something which may sound utterly negative and pessimistic attitude towards life. Many of us might have developed these kinds of thought before out of their experience in life. Few of us like to express and few others don’t do because of unknown fear. Let’s try to approach it differently with a positive spirit.
I had a sound sleep for few hours today afternoon. I had a dream after a long time. I was feeling good inside and ever thankful to the power I don’t understand who reconnected the broken string. I was rejoicing with a thought I can sing again to the tunes of music.
I used to dream a lot in my childhood thinking about stories I hear and others I watch on TV. Suddenly all those disappeared as I grew up. I felt like I am ever busy and there is no time to dream. I had a feeling I lost my true nature. I never understood if it is because of my surrounding environment. Why can’t I develop those powerful thoughts again as in my childhood? What is really missing?
When is the last time you felt abandoned and isolated? A feeling of nothing to do for anyone as all your near and dear ones going away from you who are never reachable again. You are in complete isolation without connection with the world outside. You tried to reach people but you understand now nobody wants you. You have to live in your world as they can’t come to your world.
You are in a deep thought now what is the living force in me. You are seeking answers to many of your questions. What is the purpose of my living? Who will show me the direction to move ahead? You are still doing nothing but thinking with a hope to find some way out to get accepted by people and comeback to a common society. You are striving to live a life of a common human being as anybody else in the society.
You are in a state of depression when you don’t get enough support from your immediate family including your spouse/kids. It is because they don’t like the life you live. They are in love with the material world where they want to possess more and more wealth. They are not in love with you now as they understand you can’t give them the world they like. They are annoyed with the idea of social change. They don’t support your activities too in this direction.
This is the time when feel deep isolation even when you see people around. This is primarily because your idea of life don’t match with others and hence you are unable to walk together with others. Still you feel you are in the right direction and should not change your footsteps for others. You tried best to make people understand the road you are traveling now but all in vain as they feel high insecurity in this direction. They don’t believe your choosen path will give them the satisfaction they want out of life.
You have no way to walk together but to walk alone till your last breath. You have a very big heart to accept all as they are and forgive. You don’t believe in quitting. You are still searching your roots and the strong guiding force in you. You are ever hopeful to see the sun rise again.
Who is your companion now? Do you believe in superpower?
Let’s analyse, correlate with some experience in our own lives and understand better. I am trying to understand. Often I don’t understand my own writings and think like someone else in me doing the same. I am not the kind of person who can produce these thoughts.
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